How’s life for you? Actually I don’t care. Mine Sucks.
There’s an old saying. When something looks too good to be true, it usually is. I’ve recently re-affirmed something that I’ve always known. My life sucks. Now I’m not saying that everybody else’s life doesn’t or that my problems are bigger than everybody else’s. But I’m not talking about everybody else. I’m talking about me. And seeing that this is my blog and the title above describes my life and no one else’s, I think that gives me the right to focus on me with out having to consider anybody else. Yes I’m in a mood, and I’m going to rant.
I was watching some T.V the other day and heard a great line sprout from the lips of the lead character. “I’m sick of begging for the same chances that you just had!” Once again, for the unsympathetic reader, I concur that I have received chances that some people haven’t. But you don’t get rich comparing yourself to the poor do you?
So why is the Turmoil-ridden Tale of Today's Tim , particularly more tragic than usual. And the answer is…. It’s not.
You see my life isn’t filled with regular good days with the occasional bad day once in a while. It’s filled with perpetual bad days one after another, with the occasional good one. And you know what sucks about having the occasional good day? It makes the rest of the bad days feel even worse.
If there is indeed a heaven and if each of us have been assigned a guardian angel to watch over us, I’d just like give a shout out to mine.
“You’re doing a crap job and you suck!”
There are very few things that I’ve really really wanted and asked for. Sure there are a lot of things we humans cry out for, but if you think about it, there are just a very few things that we really really want. Example – a chance at the job of your dreams or maybe a chance at the girl of your dreams.
And usually those pleas involve things that you realize are beyond your control and therefore require the help of a greater being. I can think of only 2 things that I’ve really prayed for myself.
At this point, I have neither. In a phrase which describes the situation.
“I’ve begged. I’ve pleaded. And I’ve been denied.”
Doesn’t sound like much does it? Keep reciting it and after a while, you too will realize exactly how unfair our lives truly are.
Once again I’m not saying they are any more unfair than everyone else’s, cos no one’s asking you to compare.
Here’s another interesting truth I’ve realized. You’ll never have what you truly want in the right combination. No I’m not talking about riches and material wants. Let’s look at the basics. You will never have (or since we’re just talking about me), I will never have my health, the job of my dreams and the girl of my dreams all at the same time. And y’know I don’t consider that asking too much out of life. In fact I think I am very easily contented. But if I have one, I usually lose something else out of my perfect three as I like to refer to the recipe of a happy Tim. As I said, I will never have everything I truly want no matter how little that consists of. The reason being, that would be just too much happiness for me and we can’t have that can we? I guess that’s too much to ask for.
I will never be truly happy or truly satisfied. Am I greedy? I don’t think so. You see no matter how many “Happy Tim Criteria” I cut from my list, I will never have all of them. So rather than ask, what is enough for Tim to be happy, I find myself asking how many things do I have give up, before I can be happy.
And if you think that’s still asking too much, then let me repeat those two statements which this entry really revolves around.
"I've begged. I've pleaded. And I've been denied!"
AND
"I'm sick of begging for the same chances you just had!"
~Typical Tim - Tragically Tempremental and Totally Bummed Out
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